• Mindy Tsai
    I have seen some videos online that try to show what it’s like to hear voices. Often, the videos show someone doing something while recorded voices shout out words. In my experience, the voices sounded just like from real people and not just a recording. They sounded three dimensional. They were not random phrases but specific to what I was doing. Other than not having a physical presence, they almost made sense. That was why
  • Mindy Tsai
    I love reading about someone else’s life, to learn and experience life through another mind and heart. Here are my five favorite memoirs from the last six months. Educated by Tara Westover I learned how to be an adult through my family. Growing up, my father made sure that I did not have to worry about anything but just being a happy kid. I had a loving home. I was never hungry. I never had
  • Mindy Tsai
    At the beginning, I did not know what was happening to me. My stable and secure life had changed all of sudden: I lost my job of five years; I broke up with my boyfriend of six years who I was living with. I was very much alone all of a sudden. Chris and our couple friends were not around much anymore with everyone making similar life change events, getting married, going back to school,
  • Mindy Tsai
    Today it snowed. She checked her watch again, not wanting to be late for the doctor’s appointment. In a small conference room, she looked out of the window as a men talked on. His voice hummed in the background. For a second, she thought she smelled the fresh air through the glass window. The snow was like powdered sugar spilled from a jar, fine and sweet, however, lighter than sugar, floating in every direction. The
  • Mindy Tsai
    One of my favorite places in this world is the Taiwanese night markets. They have the smallest “restaurants” I have ever experienced. Each “restaurant” takes up no more than a small square of space, typically out in the open, on the street, one next to another tightly packed. There is usually a table with whatever is needed to either display or cook the food. Usually one person is behind the table. Some have sitting areas
  • Mindy Tsai
    I was sitting in front of a young researcher in a small unimpressive room in McLean hospital. I volunteered to be there, to spend three hours being part of her research. I had been there before as a research subject. This time, I played computer games. I did memory tests. I filled out self assessments. At the end, she interviewed me. When I said that I lived on my own, she sounded surprised. When I
  • Mindy Tsai

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    I met both of my ex-boyfriends in college, pre-online-dating and pre-smartphone. Match.com, the first online dating website I heard of, was founded in 1995. I was late to dating and, again, was late to online dating. Nevertheless, I finally joined the masses and tried dating online. First, I took it very seriously. I started by answering every single message I received. But some messages left me speechless. Him 1: “Hi hru cutie” I was not cool enough
  • Mindy Tsai
    When I was 36 and very single, I was hit by the narrowing of the time window to have my biological children. With any life problem I face, I turned to books and my friends. I was glad to find Selfish, Shallow, and Self-Absorbed: Sixteen Writers on the Decision Not to Have Kids. The writers in this book talk about how there isn’t one way to life. There were different scenarios for women to not have
  • Mindy Tsai
    From: Japonaise Bakery Right in front of the St. Mary T stop on the Green C line is this muted-colored bakery. It’s a hidden treasure, easy to miss, even though it’s located on Beacon Street. The staff is always courteous, helpful, and soft speaking. When I am there, I am reminded of my childhood in Taipei. Some Taiwanese pastries and cakes are heavily influenced by the Japanese and similar. My favorite is the Japanese style strawberry
  • Mindy Tsai
    The great thing about math is that it can quantify the intangibles. Taking that practice to an extreme, a person’s life can be simplified and expressed in all kinds of numbers. The most common measure is age: how old we are. Typically expressed in number of years but there is no reason why it can not be in months or even minutes to make us feel more significant. I have not run into ageism professionally
  • Mindy Tsai
    In the last week of the year, I finally have the guts to call myself a writer, a label that I had been very hesitant to give to myself. Instead of writer, I called myself “writer-wannabe” or “scribbler.” I hold quotes like “don’t be a writer, be writing” to heart, using them not only as inspiration to keep writing but also as excuses to avoid clearly defining a part of me. I have not published
  • Mindy Tsai
    Paris was easy to travel around, a very walkable city. My top three Paris moments. Eating street crepe under the Eiffel tower. The taste still lingers in my mind. Eating dinner on a restaurant boat on the Seine looking at the Notre Dam.  It was the same view since the medieval time. Visiting museum D’Orsay and Louvre and being impressed by artists old and new.
  • Mindy Tsai
    I opened my mouth during my annual health check-up and ended up with an order to get a colonoscopy. I received detailed instruction to prepare my colon. I went to CVS and was given a 4-liter intimidating large bottle with white powders inside. The day before the procedure, I was to clean out my inside through a liquid diet. My master plan was to stay home and surf the web while drinking pink lemonade, sparkling
  • Mindy Tsai
    I talked about Machu Picchu for years and finally pulled the trigger. I took planes, buses, train, and walked to finally see this view. Humans continue to amaze me; Incas built this lost city on a mountain top, surrounded by endless mountain tops above the sacred valley. It was beautiful! The walk up to the lookout house made me feel very out of shape. I was told that it was the altitude, as I watched
  • Mindy Tsai
    For the nth time, I am starting a blog. I have stories that I want to tell anyone who would listen. My stories are about living a real and messy life. But I am just an everyday nobody. With all the words I put together, there might be no one reading them. Regardless, I feel brave and am restarting my writing journey again. Welcome to my blog! Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.

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